I haven't been completely forthcoming with you, or with myself. Grief continues to affect me. I don't like admitting this and I certainly don't enjoy this being my reality when it's been over a year since my Dad passed on. Yet here it is. And, I feel like the big thing for me to learn through this whole process is to fully admit, accept and process the challenges that life presents. It's been to my detriment that I've Continue Reading
I’m not ready for Masters Swim Classes, I’ve decided. Not yet. Not now.
Coming off my sick week, I first majorly improved my relationship with the swim and then I was again plagued by doubt and then brought myself to back to a (little bit shaky) calm. Phew. I'm tired of hearing myself lament and go on and on about swimming. Aren't you?? But, I'm committed to processing this fully (and hopefully healthily) - so here's how this week's swimming emotional roller coaster ride Continue Reading
Oh. My. Goodness… This. Is. Expensive.
Holy moley. I went cycle equipment shopping today. I'm overwhelmed about these little CO2 canisters and tubes I have (good gravy, how does that work?) and about how I spent over $300 and didn't even get everything on my list!! And I'm not going with the high-end options, I'm going with the good-enough options. I came home and started tallying it up for my husband... "You know how much it costs to do an Ironman?? Get me Continue Reading
Uuuuugh, why can’t this be run, bike, run??!
Did my swim session yesterday. Ugh. I felt worried during most of it. The truth is, I probably did just fine physically, for me, for where I'm at. It was probably just fine. But it didn't feel fine in my head. I was fixated on how tired and winded I felt after one length of the pool. (yeah, 64 lengths = 1 mile. and I just did the math - which I shouldn't have done! - 2.4 miles = 153.6 lengths). That scares the Sh%^t Continue Reading
